The One (Dating/Relationships)

Dating: Hrm… well everyone I don’t know if he considers me his boyfriend, but I consider him mine; well my long distance boyfriend. As you know I recently found an old friend from grade school (Tyler Napoli), we’ve been texting each other for the past few days and well… it’s complicated to say the least. I don’t mean that my feelings for him are complicated, those are clear. It’s just the whole situation it’s self is. Have so many questions like; is it to soon to say I’ve found THE one, am I to young to know what true love is, or how do I say yes to him. Yes I realize those questions are REALLY cheesy, but they’re very important questions that need to be asked. Anyway it’s all very complicated, but there are a few things I am certain of; I have a date to prom for next year XD, we have plans to see each other this summer, he finds me attractive, and I consider him my boyfriend. <3

Thanks for listening to me babble on about my mushy feelings for tyler ;)

Relationship: I wanna talk about a person very special to me; Ashley Herrera, this girl is so amazing, she’s beyond words, but I’ll try to put her into some. For starters she is a proud Mexican and she won’t let you forget that she is. She’s one of the most trustworthy people you will ever know; that’s a fact. She keeps me grounded on most days by telling me when to shut up or when I need to speak my mind, to be honest I would be in a shit load of trouble if it weren’t for her holding me back(in a good way of course) She’s kind, beautiful, and could probably get any guy she wanted if she tried. I honestly haven’t had a better friend my whole life. If you don’t know her, then get to know her cause you’ll miss out on a wonderful friend if you don’t.

Daily Confessions: Well I’m riding in the car pre-writing this post and let me tell you it’s not the easiest thing in the world :/ This past weekend has given me ample time to reflect on my school year. I’ve come to realize that I should have started this blog a lot sooner than I did. This blog was originally started as a personal diary, then I figured, what the hell why not let people into my inner most thoughts, it’s not like keeping quite got anyone anywhere. I hope that in the future my blog will become an inspiration for all who read it, but before I go inspiring people I need to get a little better at this whole blogging thing : )

As always Stay Beautiful

Here’s the song for today

Tuesday Bitches :D (Poems)

So today's Tuesday and I only have 2 and a half days left before spring.... SUPER EXCITED!!!

Today's poem I wrote in, I think the 8th grade... this was during the time I was struggling with my sexuality and was in the closet. Anyways I never wrote a title for it so I don't know what to call it.... Hrm....

They tell you to be happy
All smiles, no frowns
They tell you things are great
But yet,
They crowd you with critisism
They say it's for the best
But yet you seem to stand lower than the rest
You feel the heavy sadness of the pureness you can't hold
You feel the sharp pain that throws you in the cold
You look at your world
And you lower your head with shame
Cause this terrible curse proves life's not all fun and games

well there you have it :) of course I don't feel like this anymore, now that I'm out and open.

Daily Confession:
So last night I went to my facebook page to see what everyone was up to and I see that I have a couple of friend requests. So I click on the little icon and the first thing I see pop up is some old cowboy lookin dude that looked liked a possible rapest. Well I of course DID NOT add him as a friend. Then I go to the next friend request and see this guy
 
pop up. My first reaction was holy shit this guys HOT, why the hell would he want to talk to me. After the shock had past I decided to look at his profile and see that he lives in St. Louis and goes to school with a lot of my old friends, I end up adding him and then I scrolled down (to see what he was into) and I see that he's BI; I about shat myself on the spot. But then I thought FML, he lives in St. Louis... FUCK, why did I have to move to branson!!!? Well I saw that he was online so I thought, what the hell why not talk to him. And the first thing I say is "not gonna lie, your really HOT" Yes I know it was a total creeper move, but I can't help myself sometimes. Anyway we start talking and I find out we went to grade school together, I find my old year book and sure enough there he is, Tyler Napoli. I then felt like a pedo when I did a comparision to see how different he looked... turns out he looks pretty much the same, only older and hotter. Well I think that's all for today's confession. Thanks for reading. As always Stay Beautiful :)

Here's todays song from last night's Glee that me pee my pants cause it was too funny:

OMG SO SO SO SO Sorry I haven't been able to blog in forever!!! (Dating/Relationships)

SOOOOOO as you've seen from the title, I am sorry I haven't been around as much as I had hope, but I'm here now so let's get this blog post started.

Dating: If you have been reading my tweets then already know this, I am single... sigh oh well

Relationships: Well where to start hmmm.... I think I'll focus on my relationship with Taylor (L)
Taylor and I started our friendship off hating each other (petty stuff that really meant nothing now that I look back on it) So after a couple of weeks of fighting I finally apologized and now here we are all gung ho and happy... lol (I'm so full of shit) If you didn't know me or Taylor, you would think that we wanted each other to drop dead (can't wait to hear what next year's freshman think) In truth there are some days I have no idea what Taylor is thinking, but other days we laugh our heads off at the akward stuff that happens in the drama dept. In conclusion I think my realationship with taylor can be used as a life lesson for others, If you can't beat em' join em'

Gerat pic I might add Love Ya Taylor :D
Daily confession:
Hrmm... Today I got called a faggot for the first time in my life :( Let's just say I bitched slapped them with my words and they will no longer be calling ANYONE a faggot any time soon. Anyway, on a lighter note, I GOT MY PERMIT XD!!! Also Happy Masterbation month. As always stay beautiful!

here's todays song:

A new blog experience

I generaly keep a list of my favorite quotes on my phone. Today I decided to share them. I also thought; in an effort to keep my blog orgainizedand get my readers to keep reading, I would release my blog posts in segments: Monday's are a review of my weekend (Weekend Review), Tuesday's Dating/Relationships, Wensday's Poems, Thursday's Quotes, and Friday's I will either not post anything or talk about whatever is happening in Branson's/ the country's gay community. Also in addition to organized blog posts, Iwill be making Daily Confessions "daily" and I will continue to post songs from glee and other artist. n a side note, it may take me awhile to come up with new posts cause my mom grounded me from the computer; the only reason I able to post this now is because I'm using the school's computer. So as promissed here are todays quotes.

One of the hardest things in life is to watch the person you love, love someone else.

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future and accepts you the way you are.

The worst way to miss someone is to have them sitting right next to you and know that you can never have them.

Here's today's song:

Poem

Yesterday I wrote a poem about you-know-who, it felt pretty good letting my feelings out and seeing them in front of me. I also decided that I would post some of my other poems that I wrote a few years back. Well here's what I wrote:

Something More

by Aaron Cole

Your  body’s like a tower; tall and strong

And when you smile, it’s like staring into sunlight

The perfect guy in every way

But every day I look away

Cause I know I can’t have you…

Not now, not ever

You and me play for different teams you see

Everyone knows how I feel… except for you

Do you know you’re the one I see, when my eyes are closed and I’m all alone

At times I question the things you do

And start to thing about me and you

Only to relise that it’s just a daydream

Nothing more

Oh how I wish it was something more

Btw Sorry there's no song for this post, I'm using my schools computer and they blocked youtube for some retarded reason. I will post one once I get home. As always stay beautiful :D

NEW PICS finally :D

Daily Confession

Due to the graphic embarassment a certian person might feel this post will only be up for one week. So read up everyone :)

Ok so from the above comment you may already know who I'm talking about, if you don't however, well I'm talking about Silas. Tonight I ran sound for a choir concert. It was awsome btw if you missed it you missed out big time. Anyway for the LONGEST time I've had this small little feeling that Silas might be gay... or at least bisexual. Here's a list of why I think this:

1) If you know him; Have you seen the way he acts around girls, I've never once seen him flirt with a girl.

2) Most straight guys (if they have looks) flaunt the fact. Silas doesn't.

3) He is in LOVE with his hair... nuff said

4) FACT: he wears body flattering clothes... CORRECTLY, such as whitey tightys (I only know that cause I had gym with him in Jr High)

5) Refering to #4 while in the locker room I couldn't help but notice that he was looking at the other guys.

6) He's WAY to playful with his guy friends for him to be straight. It's all fun and games until someone gets a boner... Then it's a fucking party lol

He did a great job tonight at the concert. Let me just say that the DEEP V T-shirt he wore tonight was not proving to me that he's straight. However if he is straight then good for him, but he's missin out.

Don't know why I can't stop listening to this song