Simply Put

On Thanksgiving, something happened that was so shocking and left such a strong impression on me, that I cannot avoid tackling it. I was on Facebook, “doing homework,” when I saw a certain status pop up on my news feed. This status was the single most hateful, homophobic thing I have seen in my entire life. I would reproduce it here but it contains language so offensive and so vulgar that I would not be allowed to do so.

Now it’s rare that something I see on Facebook leaves such an impact with me. But once I saw this, it was all I could think about. I realized that I had only really been exposed to progressive people in my life, people who support things like gay marriage. This represented such a severe form of culture shock that I could not turn away, so I tracked this status for about 20 minutes.

There were quite a few responses, at least 20 of them. I expected that people would be jumping to shut this kid up and defend the gay community, but I was sorely mistaken. In fact, there was only one negative response to this status — the rest were overwhelmingly positive. To me, it seemed especially ridiculous to see high school students commenting on this. After the Tyler Clementi tragedy last year, I thought that sensitivity regarding gay rights was at an all-time high at our school. Clearly though, that is not the case for everyone here.

When I see people getting so passionate about suppressing groups like homosexuals, I am always overwhelmed by how pointless it is. When it comes down to it, it will not affect anybody besides the people getting married. You are not achieving some sort of spiritual victory by doing this. All you are doing is ruining someone else’s day, to put it lightly. With all the problems in the world and all the issues out there, why would anybody prioritize ruining someone else’s day?

The other main thing that bothered me about this situation was the information these people were using to back up their ridiculous claims. Since there is basically no logical way to support gay bashing, these people responded with what seems to be the most effective method of political hate-mongering — religion. The people who commented posted about Islam’s feelings toward homosexuality and posted a video with an Islamic preacher talking about how evil homosexuals are.

As someone who views Islam as a largely peaceful religion, this especially shocked me. I don’t think these fanatics’ views are at all representative of what the vast majority of Muslims believe. However, there were quite a few people, students at this University, who were ready to use the Quran to back up claims — like how it calls for homosexuals to be stoned to death as punishment.

Like I said, I do not see this as being representative of the greater Muslim population, but there are many people who would look at this and just see a rationale for Islamophobia. It is very obvious that there is a prevailing sense of Islamophobia within this country. A 2010 Gallup poll showed that a remarkable 43 percent of all Americans admit to feeling at least a little prejudiced toward Muslims. Knowing this, the Islamic population should try to show the world that Islam is a peaceful religion. The last thing that Muslims should be doing is talking about how much they hate gay people.

This does not only affect the Muslim population, but this affects religion as a whole in the United States. Right now, there are a lot of people that do not have any use for religion. This is because of beliefs that religion goes side by side with reactionary socially conservative policies.

There is only one way to remedy it, and it is a seemingly easy way. Religious groups should focus on social issues that matter and actually contribute to people suffering. Most importantly, these fringe elements have to stop doing things like protesting in front of abortion clinics and making horrible homophobic Facebook statuses for no reason.

I know this isn't the usual stuff I write about but it's important to me. Thanks for reading. !STAY BEAUTIFUL!

Stuck in my head

Well I finally apologized to Dakota. So why do I still feel empty inside? I'm just done with everything. I thought that if I apologized, things would change. I guess I was wrong. I miss my best friend. I just want everything to go back to the way it was before all of this happened. I worry about him so much. It breaks my heart every time I over hear Haleigh talking to him on the phone. God I miss him, even just his scent. I've been so on edge lately I have to will my self not to cry when I think about him. He truly did care for my well being. I'm the worst person on earth. What really gets at me is the fact that I don't know why I felt the need to do what I did. I can't even fathom the hate he probably has for me, but I don't blame him. I would hate me too if I were in his position. So now I'm done. I've lost him forever and I now have to live with that fact for the rest of my life. I'm just done. Every time I hear his name or think about the way things used to be, the hole in my heart gets bigger. I don't think I care what happens to me anymore. I don't want him back in my life as a boyfriend, I came to the difficult realization that it won't happen. I just want my best friend back. That's all. !STAYBEUATIFUL!

Before Bed Workout

Every night before I go to bed I do a small workout and I thought I would share it.

40 crunches
10 push-ups (fist)
10 push-ups (normal)
Stretches:
10 sec. Left
10 sec. Right
10 sec. Middle

Breathing Exercises
Hold breath for 25 sec, exhale (Repeat 5x)
Finish workout with one glass of cold water.

Well that's all there is to it. Hope it helps :) !Stay Beautiful!

Queer Bait

For all of the people who know or have heard of Austin Hargus.... Today in English he decided to call me a queer bait. Before I take this out of context let me give you a little back story. I walked into the computer lab a headed to my usual spot. I see a bag, not on, but by the chair. I assumed that someone had left it there from the previous class. I picked it up and moved it.... MOVED IT I did not throw it away from said chair. I sat down, logged on to the computer and began to work. Austin walks in and asks wel the hell are you doing, thats my seat didn't you see my bag!? To which I replied oh I'm sorry I didn't realize that was your bag. He then said oh yeah sure you fucking queer bait . To quote Oiser IS THAT RUDE OR WHAT?! Honestly I wasn't at all offended because he's a very uneducated individual. I actually feel sorry for him. If that's the only way he knows how to express his feelings then he probably has some serious issues that he need to work out. Needless to say Haleigh stood up for me and told Mrs. Jones. Thank you Haleigh, you're a good friend :)

Pop Culture Update

Here's whats hot!
TV:The Secret Circle, Charlie's Angels, Pan Am
Fashion: Look up NY 2011 Fall Fashion Week for all the hottest trends
Music: Elizaveta, Ellie Goulding, And oddly enough Seth MacFarlane (he's REALLY good)

What's Happening in Branson MO
Places: A Wild Hair Salon "The Newest Hais Salon on the Block" located across the street from Skaggs, under Aspire Health Spa
Mark Ahston's on the landing (cheap designer bags)
Coach at Tanger (Look at NY Fall Fasion Week 2011 to see why)
Ralph Lauren Polo (Look at NY Fall Fasion Week 2011 to see why)
People:
Lauren Taylor Johnston, always wearing the hippest boots, if you don't know what fashion is look to L. Taylor Johnston for hieght of full fall fashion

Well thats all for my Pop Culture Update

Here's Snow in Venice by Elizaveta

Here's a fun little picture I found

Labor Day and the A-List:New York/Dallas

Hey guys so sorry I haven't posted in FOREVER!!! Aaaaany way, as my Labor Day weekend comes to an end I must say AWSOME weekend. I was able to do kayaking and biking and it was sooo relaxing!
Now on to WHAT'S HOT! If you don't know what the A-List is then you are missing out on some HAWT gossip. To catch up on all the drama here's a link: http://www.logotv.com/shows/the_a_list_new_york/season_1/series.jhtml
Being new to the LGBT community in a small town is hard because there aren't really any roll models for my, but thanks to this show I know what's what. As far as the A-List: Dallas, well while I'm looking foreward to it I really don't like Taylor, there's just something... off about him, he doesn't sit right with me. James on the other hand HOOOT!!!! here's a pic:


well no new music for this post :( sorry
As always Stay Beautiful!

First day of school and some other shit :P

So I'm in a total loopy/horny/goofy mood right now :P

Well today was the first day of school! I could not be any happier. Saw some cute freshmen, so I guess thats a plus. I had the best hair day of my life and the perfct outfit to boot. I couldn't have asked for a better first day. I have made a little change in my song for the musical audition, Waiting Outside The Lines. I also realised that I can't wear NOH8 on the side of my face cause it's apparently against the rules :( where's ACLU when you need 'em :P Don't have very many classes with any attractive people, it's just a little depressing.

Still single :( How ever I am enjoying my job, a lot of hot guys go in and out of the store all of the time.

Total random thought. Help me trend #PowerBottomsForJesus it would mean a lot to me
Also I'm gonna be doing some drag here pretty soon so stay tuned.

Stay Beautiful everyone

Stories from Pac Sun

Ok so the past two days working at Pac Sun (at Tanger) have been a blast and I thought it would be fun to tell some of the stuff that's happened to me so far.

Let's see, my first day I was super scared, until I met Kayla, Veronica, and Brittney (who's last day is tomorrow T_T) They are some of the coolest/nicest/funniest people I have ever met. Kayla is exactly like Nez, Veronica is a bubbly goof, and Brittney is just a ditz :P

On my first day a little girl got lost in the store and her mom was really casual and almost unresponsive to the fact that her daughter was missing. Veronica was like "If that was my kid, I would have been ripping the store apart screaming and throwing a fit". Working with Kayla is soo much fun you have no idea. She gehtto boo! There were these one people that left the dressing room a mess. They had tried on like 7 pairs of  jeans, I think like 5 different shirts and didn't buy a single thing... I was soo pissed, I guess that's retail for you.

My second was pretty boring until this old lady came in and asked me and Kayla where the restrooms were at. Here's how the conversation went Lady "were are the restrooms at?" Kayla "they're across the street in this sort of nut shack" the old lady stares blankly Me (out of nowhere) "yeah, they sell nuts there!" me and Kayla could not stop laughing.

Well that's all that pretty much happened. I love retail. Stay Beautiful everyone :)

Pac Sun Promos: Girls Bullhead Flare and Bootcut jeans buy one get one free
                            Guys Bullhead Ridcon and Wilsher jeans buy one get one free
                            Graphic Tees buy one get one $10
                            Girls perfume 2 for $10
NEW PRODUCT: Wrangler jeans

Beauty and the Beast/ Pac Sun

Today got to thinking about next year's musical, what song i should audition with, the set etc. Honestly I'm scared to death of how the set will turn out, I have some ideas as far as the castel goes, but what I'm really worried about is the town and the pub. We could roll on the set, then again that's just a pain in the ass to deal with. Although knowing the dept. that's probably what will end up happening.

I know for sure that this year I will be auditioning for the musical. If Mr. Gowers doesn't have something for us to sing for our audition, then I'll be auditioning with either Rolling In The Deep or Turning Tables, but I want to go over both songs with taylor (she's the only one who I can get a truly pure opinion from, plus if I suck I know I can have her help me)

As for my new job at PacSun my first day is Saturday from 6:00pm to 11:00pm. It also happns to be the first day of tax free weekend, so if you can make it we are having a sale on all jeans for I think $10.00 if I recall correctly. So yeah come bug me and spend some money :P

As always Stay Beautiful

Still single, I hope there are some cute freshmen next year :)

The "Gay" state of mind and some other stuff

Body image; Am I fat? or I need a rock hard 6-pack
Penis size; nuff said
Position; Top or Bottom
What am I; twink, hunk, bear etc.
How should I act; kind, snobby, bitchy etc.

That's just a small part of the ever growing list of things that run through every gay teen and man's mind; including mine. You see there's this pressure we in the gay community put on ourselves for some retarded reason. It's one of those things that no one really talks about because we all know it's true. We try to be better than one another so that at the end of the day we can feel better about ourselves. We work and work on our public image so much we forget what truly matters; friends, family, and most importantly ourselves.
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What I hate the most

I'll galdly admit that I hate metrosexuals, but I only hate the ones that do it for the attention. I know that hate's a bad emotion to hold on to, but when I see someone acting like a total flamer when they aren't I want to scream in their face and if you think about it I have every right to. The LGBT community has gone through so much suffering and we've come so far, and then some ass decides he's going to act "gay" it's like telling us that our struggle was for nothing. An average person's first thought when they see a metrosexual is probably going to be "oh that guy is gay" or something like that. Then depending on who that person is, it could go a lot of different ways. the person may be a homophobe and they may ask the metrosexual if they are gay, the metrosexual then says they aren't gay and then the homophobe is ok with the metrosexual. That says to me that it's ok to act gay but it's not ok to be gay and that's not ok by me.

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Writing a new song called "A Call To Arms". So far I only have the chours :/ I've had a litte writers block, but thats nothing a litte Mary Jane can't fix ;)

Stay Beautiful :)

Uggs are UGGLY! and other thoughts :)

Well everyone, today was one of those kind of days, but not in a bad sense. What I mean is that it's one of those days thats hard to describe, ya know. Have you ever been so tired that everything becomes 100x funnier for no reason. I guess that's how today went for me. I was actually fairly busy to day. For starters I had a job interview with PacSun (That went very well) and I got my hair cut at my favorite place in the entire world A Wild Hair Salon (Below Aspire, across from skaggs) It's owned by some of nicest guys you will ever meet (chris and shawn) gotta love 'em, and I learned something to day... guess who also gets their hair cut there... Silas! No shit it's legit. Chris and I were talking about next years musical and we start talking about who we think would be best for beast and then he says Silas Langford... My jaw dropped and I asked him how he knew Silas, well apparently Shawn cuts his hair. SMALL WORLD! I had no idea!

Side note: Girls just because it's high priced does not mean it looks good. FYI Uggs are UGGLY, That's coming from a gay. So next time you go to put on a pair, PLEASE think twice before making a tacky footwear choice. As for TOMS... DON'T GET ME STARTED!

Well that's it for now, as always Stay Beautiful :) oh! before I forget Tyler and I are no longer talking :( oh well, give me a week and i'll be fine :P

Change for the Better :)

This one is for Ashley "Hooray!" I haven't gossiped in over 2 whole months!! I'm bringing this up because I ran into Jenna Sarni today at American Eagle and she told me she heard there was some drama at ITF this year (I'm assuming she heard it from Dakota, but don't quote me on that, in the great words of Haliegh Mackey "You know what they say about assuming... It makes an ass out of you and me") anyway I did however ask a few people if anything really big happened and to my knowlege no much had happened; of course there was regular everyday run-of-the-mill drama but whats new :P. The point I'm trying to make is that I have no idea what happened at ITF and I honestly don't care. I'm extremly proud of myself. Ive made a big step in my life today and I couldn't be happier. I hope my not getting into everyones problems carries on into the next year.

This is an awsome song for Pride month:

Summer Post

Well everyone, I've got news. Guess who's gonna do an amature photo shoot... THIS GUY!!! The idea came to me while watching a LogoTV Documentary called Pretty Boys. It's about this modle and how he's just some regular guy, but that's not important. The important thing is that I've desided to model. Just think about it, tons of free shit, great pay, awsome work hours, and a bunch of other shit! Honestly I have had a perfessional modeling agent tell me that I could have a future in modeling if I wanted. At the time I thought nothing of it , but now I'm starting to see the possibilites. I've asked a friend of mine Rachel Parker to help me (she's a former model) and I'm really excited about the shoot. I can't wait!

As for an update on what I've been up to these past few weeks, I went back to St. Louis to see my family, possibly 'see' Tyler, and go on a float trip. Sadly I was unable to 'see' Tyler because he had to go out of town. I did stay at my grandparents house with my two little cousins; God damn if I ever have kids someone please kill me. As for the float trip, it was fun... until I fell in the mud trying to walk up a hill.

That's pretty much all I've been up to. I will post the pics from the up-coming shoot, so stay tuned for those. I was also thinking about expanding my blog and doing talky blogs (youtube videos), but we'll have to see how things lay out first. As always stay beautiful :)

My Summer Officialy Starts :P

So for the past 2 weeks I've been stuck in the hell hole known as SUMMER SCHOOL...
Well I finished my time and I'm done. Sadly I have nothing to do :( All I can do is wait for the day when I can see Tyler XD I haven't done much today. Well my cousin Melissa (she kinda like my older better looking sister) moved to Texas this past weekend with a friend and his family. Her friend's family is opening a restraunt and they offered her a job. I really hope she has a good time and everything works out for her. My mom and I are sending her a care package with a bunch of stuff in it. I found her the perfect tina fay card; it says some really funny shit :P With the card I sent her a letter containing our favorite memories, like the first time we watched the movie Super Star. I also told her I would love for us to work on a production together. It would be one bad ass show. Now that I think about it, I do need to start working on next years shows; Beauty and The Beast and Steel Magnolias. I already have some pictures, but I need to write the dicriptions for them. I guess that'll keep me busy for a few days. Thanks for listening to me blab on and on. Stay Beautiful <3

The other day I was watching the MMVA awards show and forund this awsome band called These Kids Wear Crowns; this song is perfect for the summer:

Gaga Marathon!

Recently I've noticed the change in Gaga's work... Old Gaga and New Gaga. So I thought it would be fun to post all of Gaga's video's and let you; my blog buddies, see for yourself Gaga's change.

Well that's all of the hoped you liked them :)

New hair!

In case you haven't seen it here's my new hair color :p

I've gone gaga for Gaga

Hello blog buddies! I've been reading a wonderful book called "Looking For Fame: The Life Of A Pop Princess Lady Gaga" Let me just say that i've never been more inspired musicaly by a person that I don't even know. I recently was left by Lindsey, though sad it may be, I still have hope for myself in the music industry. Anyway back to the book, I haven't even finished it and already I'm seeing what kind of artist I want to become. Behind all of the glits and glamore of a pop star, lies a truly down-to-earth woman. I respected Lady Gaga as an artist, but now I have respect  for her as a person. That's what I want from my future fans. I have multiple influences weither it's from Britney Spears, Ke$ha, Katy Perry, Seirra Kusterbeck, or Cassidy Pope the biggest influence is from Lady Gaga and from this point forth it will remain this way. I know you'll probably never read this, but Lady Gaga you're an inspiration to me and always will be, I hope to meet you one day so that I can tell you this in person; thank you for being my muse. Your a beacon of light to all in an other-wise bleak world.

Lol here's todays song:

Darren Criss.... mmm so HOT!!!

!NOH8!

Ok blog buddies it's time I stop putting this off and just do this. Everyone ready for this? The week of ITF I want as many of my blog buddies to wear the ^above anywhere people can see it. Since I'm unable to attend this year I will be wearing mine the first week back to school. Everyone who wears this will be helping millions in the LGBT community fight for their right to marry and have the same rights as everyone else. And as soon as I turn 18 I'll be getting a NOH8 tattoo on my arm. With your help I know we'll change America, even the world. Stay Beautiful everyone.

Todays song is of course:

My Summer Blog

So I figured that since schools out I might want to have an alternative blog format. So ALL this summer will be about is just sutff, like what ever comes to mind. That probably means a lot of the posts will be about Tyler XD... Anyway I'll still post with the old format as soon as the school year starts again. Now on to the good stuff :)

So this summer my main goal is spending time back in St. Louis with mainly Tyler, but also some of my other friends like Tori Burket and Mandy Spell. But all this won't be happening until mid-july. So leading up to that I'll probably be learning how to drive, cooking, looking for a job, watchingTV, summer school for 2 and a half weeks, and exercising. Well that pretty much all for this blog post, as always Stay Beautiful :)

Today's song is: