Ha! Stright people crack me up!! :)

HAHAHA!!! Today I relized that almost ALL straight people feel the need to say something along the lines of "blah blah blah, But I'm not a homophobe or anything." when they talk to me about stuff that is considered a "gay" topic. It's not like I care if your a homophobe or not, your entitled to your own thought's, who am I to tell you otherwise. Something else I catch straight people saying is "that's so gay". They almost always apoligize to me, again it's not like I care. After all it is a commonly used phrase, yes I know it sounds like I'm setting the gay community back a few years, but in truth NONE of us really care what you do or say.  So to all you straight people out there that feel the need to apoligize to us, here's a meassege: WE DON'T CARE!!! :)

Daily Confession

*SIGH* I am soo confused... When I was in the closet people were constantly questioning weither or not I was straight, and now that I'm out and openly gay they question weither or not I'm gay! For the record I AM gay! It just bugs me that people pull that kind of crap; and what's it to them if I'm gay or not, it's not like I choose to be gay I just am.

Another thing that I've noticed is that EVERY hot guy I see is straight! It's sooo sad. There's this one guy in my english class Chris that's super cute, but he's straight :( Then there's this other guy Silas... OMG perfect body to the T, I kid you not his body and face are works of art! Again another straight guy :(( I guess I just have a soft spot for straight guys. Although there is this really really cute guy Justen in the theatre department that IS gay, but I've already tried to ask him out, but he turned me down. Oh well I'm sure I'll find someone :)

Worst Person I Know

So there's this girl Tessa in the drama department and at first she seemed really nice, but in truth she's realla compulsive liar who's also an attention whore. For starters she does make up (god only knows why) and I might add that she SUCKS at it. To describe her she looks like she works the corners of East St. Louis. And her make up looks like a dog took a shit on her face! To add insult to injury she acts like a total bitch to me (when I've done nothing wrong) and she thinks she's all high and mighty, it pisses me off so much. I just want to push her off of her imaginary thron of her's. Sometimes some people just piss me off.

Dakota Drama Part 1

UGH I never thought I would be one to say this but FML!!! You see it all started about a month ago when I went to Missouri State Thespian Confrence, and my bestfriend Dakota (who I've always suspected of being a closeted gay) wanted to fool around with me. Had we not had a roomate, I probably would have fooled around with him. Any way I told him that I wasn't ''in the mood to fool around'' but I would when we got back home. So we get back to Branson and a couple of days passed and we started texting each other (haha I'm such a teenager) and he began to ask me different questions about gay sex etc. and I ended up asking him what he wanted to do. (due to the graphic content of the message i won't tell you ALL of the details) He told me that he basicaly wanted to give/recive a blow job and a hand job. So being me (horny 24-7) I agreed to his terms. Within a few days we made plans for the event and he ended up backing out at the last minute; which was fine by me. Well after that there was this akward tention between us and I was starting to worry about our friendship. He called me and told me that he wanted to apologize to me, I told him that there wasn't any need for apology (this took place during the weekend fyi) but he insisted and I agreed to it. he drove to my house (in the middle of no where), knocked on the door, I answered He apologized and this next part was what really took me by suprize; He said he would at least want to try to make out with me I told him that I would give it a try if he was still willing to be friends after. He agreed and we made our way over to the couch, sat down, he put his hand on my cheek, leaned in, and I started to lean in but I stopped myself because at that moment I relized that my feelings for Dakota as a friend had developed into something more... here's the kicker I told him that i needed a minute to think things over; let's just say that a minute turned into 30 akward minutes of cuddling and Just as I had made up my mind to kiss him we hear my mom walk in the door... (to be continued)