The "Gay" state of mind and some other stuff

Body image; Am I fat? or I need a rock hard 6-pack
Penis size; nuff said
Position; Top or Bottom
What am I; twink, hunk, bear etc.
How should I act; kind, snobby, bitchy etc.

That's just a small part of the ever growing list of things that run through every gay teen and man's mind; including mine. You see there's this pressure we in the gay community put on ourselves for some retarded reason. It's one of those things that no one really talks about because we all know it's true. We try to be better than one another so that at the end of the day we can feel better about ourselves. We work and work on our public image so much we forget what truly matters; friends, family, and most importantly ourselves.
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What I hate the most

I'll galdly admit that I hate metrosexuals, but I only hate the ones that do it for the attention. I know that hate's a bad emotion to hold on to, but when I see someone acting like a total flamer when they aren't I want to scream in their face and if you think about it I have every right to. The LGBT community has gone through so much suffering and we've come so far, and then some ass decides he's going to act "gay" it's like telling us that our struggle was for nothing. An average person's first thought when they see a metrosexual is probably going to be "oh that guy is gay" or something like that. Then depending on who that person is, it could go a lot of different ways. the person may be a homophobe and they may ask the metrosexual if they are gay, the metrosexual then says they aren't gay and then the homophobe is ok with the metrosexual. That says to me that it's ok to act gay but it's not ok to be gay and that's not ok by me.

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Writing a new song called "A Call To Arms". So far I only have the chours :/ I've had a litte writers block, but thats nothing a litte Mary Jane can't fix ;)

Stay Beautiful :)

Uggs are UGGLY! and other thoughts :)

Well everyone, today was one of those kind of days, but not in a bad sense. What I mean is that it's one of those days thats hard to describe, ya know. Have you ever been so tired that everything becomes 100x funnier for no reason. I guess that's how today went for me. I was actually fairly busy to day. For starters I had a job interview with PacSun (That went very well) and I got my hair cut at my favorite place in the entire world A Wild Hair Salon (Below Aspire, across from skaggs) It's owned by some of nicest guys you will ever meet (chris and shawn) gotta love 'em, and I learned something to day... guess who also gets their hair cut there... Silas! No shit it's legit. Chris and I were talking about next years musical and we start talking about who we think would be best for beast and then he says Silas Langford... My jaw dropped and I asked him how he knew Silas, well apparently Shawn cuts his hair. SMALL WORLD! I had no idea!

Side note: Girls just because it's high priced does not mean it looks good. FYI Uggs are UGGLY, That's coming from a gay. So next time you go to put on a pair, PLEASE think twice before making a tacky footwear choice. As for TOMS... DON'T GET ME STARTED!

Well that's it for now, as always Stay Beautiful :) oh! before I forget Tyler and I are no longer talking :( oh well, give me a week and i'll be fine :P

Change for the Better :)

This one is for Ashley "Hooray!" I haven't gossiped in over 2 whole months!! I'm bringing this up because I ran into Jenna Sarni today at American Eagle and she told me she heard there was some drama at ITF this year (I'm assuming she heard it from Dakota, but don't quote me on that, in the great words of Haliegh Mackey "You know what they say about assuming... It makes an ass out of you and me") anyway I did however ask a few people if anything really big happened and to my knowlege no much had happened; of course there was regular everyday run-of-the-mill drama but whats new :P. The point I'm trying to make is that I have no idea what happened at ITF and I honestly don't care. I'm extremly proud of myself. Ive made a big step in my life today and I couldn't be happier. I hope my not getting into everyones problems carries on into the next year.

This is an awsome song for Pride month:

Summer Post

Well everyone, I've got news. Guess who's gonna do an amature photo shoot... THIS GUY!!! The idea came to me while watching a LogoTV Documentary called Pretty Boys. It's about this modle and how he's just some regular guy, but that's not important. The important thing is that I've desided to model. Just think about it, tons of free shit, great pay, awsome work hours, and a bunch of other shit! Honestly I have had a perfessional modeling agent tell me that I could have a future in modeling if I wanted. At the time I thought nothing of it , but now I'm starting to see the possibilites. I've asked a friend of mine Rachel Parker to help me (she's a former model) and I'm really excited about the shoot. I can't wait!

As for an update on what I've been up to these past few weeks, I went back to St. Louis to see my family, possibly 'see' Tyler, and go on a float trip. Sadly I was unable to 'see' Tyler because he had to go out of town. I did stay at my grandparents house with my two little cousins; God damn if I ever have kids someone please kill me. As for the float trip, it was fun... until I fell in the mud trying to walk up a hill.

That's pretty much all I've been up to. I will post the pics from the up-coming shoot, so stay tuned for those. I was also thinking about expanding my blog and doing talky blogs (youtube videos), but we'll have to see how things lay out first. As always stay beautiful :)