Stuck in my head

Well I finally apologized to Dakota. So why do I still feel empty inside? I'm just done with everything. I thought that if I apologized, things would change. I guess I was wrong. I miss my best friend. I just want everything to go back to the way it was before all of this happened. I worry about him so much. It breaks my heart every time I over hear Haleigh talking to him on the phone. God I miss him, even just his scent. I've been so on edge lately I have to will my self not to cry when I think about him. He truly did care for my well being. I'm the worst person on earth. What really gets at me is the fact that I don't know why I felt the need to do what I did. I can't even fathom the hate he probably has for me, but I don't blame him. I would hate me too if I were in his position. So now I'm done. I've lost him forever and I now have to live with that fact for the rest of my life. I'm just done. Every time I hear his name or think about the way things used to be, the hole in my heart gets bigger. I don't think I care what happens to me anymore. I don't want him back in my life as a boyfriend, I came to the difficult realization that it won't happen. I just want my best friend back. That's all. !STAYBEUATIFUL!

Before Bed Workout

Every night before I go to bed I do a small workout and I thought I would share it.

40 crunches
10 push-ups (fist)
10 push-ups (normal)
Stretches:
10 sec. Left
10 sec. Right
10 sec. Middle

Breathing Exercises
Hold breath for 25 sec, exhale (Repeat 5x)
Finish workout with one glass of cold water.

Well that's all there is to it. Hope it helps :) !Stay Beautiful!

Queer Bait

For all of the people who know or have heard of Austin Hargus.... Today in English he decided to call me a queer bait. Before I take this out of context let me give you a little back story. I walked into the computer lab a headed to my usual spot. I see a bag, not on, but by the chair. I assumed that someone had left it there from the previous class. I picked it up and moved it.... MOVED IT I did not throw it away from said chair. I sat down, logged on to the computer and began to work. Austin walks in and asks wel the hell are you doing, thats my seat didn't you see my bag!? To which I replied oh I'm sorry I didn't realize that was your bag. He then said oh yeah sure you fucking queer bait . To quote Oiser IS THAT RUDE OR WHAT?! Honestly I wasn't at all offended because he's a very uneducated individual. I actually feel sorry for him. If that's the only way he knows how to express his feelings then he probably has some serious issues that he need to work out. Needless to say Haleigh stood up for me and told Mrs. Jones. Thank you Haleigh, you're a good friend :)